eh...gwurr...

i wish summer school would start.my phone has been off, so me and my boyfriend have not spoken for a while.in fact,i have not spoken to anyone i know in person except my mom and brother.i've been busy getting on their nerves and singing songs in a chipmunk voice.im a junior now.im getting grown fast.it's kinda wierd, you know?some of my favourite ppl graduated last week, and i probably wont see them anymore.it makes me kinda.....sad (for lack of a cooler sounding word)it just makes me wish i could ...hell, i dont know....something.i like my friends,so the thought of not seeing them,or even going to teh same school as them scares and depresses me.i dont know...i guess i kinda have a fear of being alone in the world.the idea of having no one disturbs me.it does.im wierd like that.it feels like im reaching out for them as they fade away.kinda like this pic of lain.yea.thats how i feel.its also why i try very hard not to get attatched to ppl....'cos i dont want to feel bad when we have to go our seperate ways.im tired of having to "let go",so i dont really "grab on" to begin with...does that make me jaded?yea....that was a stupid question- i am jaded.